I was recently involved in a skirmish on a forum that I frequent occassionally nowadays, TheSmackdownHotel. I posted my Saints Row video on there and a person came into the thread and started to perform character assassination. You can see it for yourself here, although some of the posts have been removed because Mr. Badwool cleaned up the thread a bit.
The administrator RKHT was kind enough to allow the "discussion". So I figured "great!". I saw it as a chance for myself to make the ultimate defensive statement against society. Almost a manifesto, if you will. Because you see, "Mr. London" embodies every stupid opinion that I have gotten thrown at me by penis-heads for the 7 years that I've been doing The Bumpmeister thing. He is rather good at expressing himself in text and neatly summed up everything that every single narrow-minded jackass has ever told me in form of critique about who I am and what I do. And I figured that if I ever come across a "hater" again, I can just link them to my post in that topic and I'll have said everything I need to say.
I didn't think a person like him would be able to read a text that long so I wasn't expecting much, though I can't deny that I was still hoping for a reply. Because arguing on the internet is fun, especially when it's a conversation about me. And it's surely a bonus when the argument is bumping my promotional topic and making more people read it.
Well. I only faced disappointment. He did reply but there was no deeper reasoning involved anywhere on his behalf, his posts simply consisted of shallow insults and him never failing to remind me that he has such an awesome life outside of the internet that he can't even be bothered to read my posts. Which is absurd. Why would you talk to someone if you're not even reading what they are saying? Why would you even initiate a conversation if you're not willing to hear their point of view?
It's clear now that he didn't want to do anything constructive. What he wanted to do was simply to lash out at someone and face no rebuttal for it, in order to reinforce his view of himself as the dominant alpha-male. And when the person doesn't bend over to his personal taste he insults them for it. What's even more absurd is that he couldn't understand my comparison to him being a rapist. And it's probably because of the very same reason I am calling him a rapist: His brain is unable to interpret any opinions other than his own.
Yet, still, I wanted to keep replying because it was giving my topic attention and, like I said, I saw it as a chance to defend myself against a terribly judgmental attitude that has been "haunting" me for my entire career. And I was curious to see what a person like him has to say about my view of the world and life, because I was actually open and honest about myself, with what I care about and what I love doing. And I suppose that I was at least expecting SOME kind of an exchange between my reasoning and his. But that was impossible, because he never adressed my reasoning. He ignored it and insulted the parts he felt like reading. Here is one part that he completely ignored that I considered to be pretty fundamental:
" And no, I don't have a job. I don't really fit into the typical structure of society, so Im trying to adapt best I can and find a place where I would feel content. But I don't see how that is really relevant to anything or how it could possibly be an insult. Do we really live in such a consumerist-society that a person's value is decided by their job? Not by their personality, actions and how kind they are to others? Granted, Im an asshole online sometimes, but you really don't know what Im like in real life.
See, this is my passion. I love to create. And I especially love to create with my character, Teryo Law. This is my joy, making little storylines. And I don't understand how other people can see themselves worthy of passing judgment on me and essentially say: "What you are doing is wrong. You need to work in a factory. Nevermind what you care about, IM telling you what you need to care about!". It's just narrow-minded. I don't pass judgment on other people for doing things I personally think is excruciatingly boring, such as school and 9-to-5-work, so I don't see how others can do the same to me. "
But it was just hopeless. Every single piece of reasoning that I posted was met with "TL;DR" (despite my posts being as long as his) and him trying to put everything I say into some kind of "arguing technique-category" in order to belittle me through analyzation. Shallow insults, and nothing else.
The official deathblow was when one of his arguments became: "UR A VIRGIN".
I mean. What are you even supposed to say to something like that? "NAH BRO I GET MAD PUSSY JUST WATCH ME BRO ILL RECORD A VIDEO OF MYSELF GETTIN MY DICK WET BRO". You just can't win against stupidity like that. Jesus christ, that sounds like the mentality of those Steubenville rapists.
And guess what? Im not a rapist jock. I don't hate women, I don't see them as numbers and I don't have any insecurity which forces me to overcompensate for my "manlyness". I don't consider a person's number of sex partners to be decisive of their value as a human being. And I actually consider those kind of judgmental values to be potentially dangerous; Just look at Steubenville.
By that point it was painfully clear that it could never possibly go anywhere. Then again, perhaps I should have been able to predict that from the start. When someone comes into a topic and treats their own opinion as fact it's pretty obvious that it couldn't possibly go anywhere constructive, you're just gonna be butting heads if you carry on with the conversation. But in all fairness, even if I knew that it wouldn't have kept me from posting in some form or another because attention is exactly what you want when you're promoting something.
I put this picture here just to break up the text and make it look more fashionable and easily readable. Good idea eh? Leon Blackgrave photoshopped that picture to make me look like The Crow. It looks fucking horrendeus. It made me lol. He also made one where Im a nigger. And he uploaded all of these on Twitter. XD Nigga is crazy!
Another thing that was amazingly absurd is him telling me that I can't take criticism. He comes into my topic, tells me that my video sucks and that I should get a job, and somehow that's "constructive criticism"? What kind of person is so incredibly narrow-minded and delusional that they would consider that to be some kind of constructive criticism?
And when I pretty much tell him that: "No, Im fine with what Im doing. Im happy with myself, Im happy with my art and Im happy doing what I do" I am faced with the reasoning that: "You can't handle criticism, ur just bitching cuz I don't like your video". Amazing. Just amazing. It reminds me of Daanesh and the type of shit he used to troll you with back in the day! And I'd like to think that London was trolling because that could have offered me more hope for mankind but sadly, I think that he was serious with every thing that he said. And that's very sad. It is mindbaffling and utterly insane that someone can be so incredibly delusional.
And yet, it's hardly a rare attitude that he has, now is it? His kind of reasoning is actually the norm in society. And that is very frightening. This is a list of things that he posted that he thinks prove that he is better than me and "owns me at the game of life":
" I, London*...
1) Have a successful job as an Operational Support manager for the UKs top security company in Cambridge.
2) I have a nice home which is paid for by me and filled with my belongings, not my parents belongings.
3) I have hobbies, writing screenplays and doing stand up comedy, as well as playing a number of different sports in my free time.
4) I can go on a nice holiday every year with the money I work hard to proudly earn.
5) I have a social life and go out every weekend to spend time with my friends and meet new people.
6) I don't get butthurt like a spoilt little brat just because somebody didn't like some stupid video that I wasted a month and a half of my life making.
7) I've swam with dolphins, done a bunjee jump, climbed mountains, celebrated birthdays in Amsterdam, Valencia and London, travelled all round the world, when I was 18 I flew to New York on my own and spent a week just exploring the city on my own, and I've experienced hundreds of amazing things, and Im only 24.
8) I get laid. "
What's frightening here is that the things he counted up is supposed to be some kind of measurement of quality. I don't understand how that could possibly be the case? How can it possibly be a measurement of quality to go out every weekend and talk shallow nonsense with shallow people?
I mean. You've probably been to a party, right? What happens at a party?
* People get drunk.
* They talk about how drunk they are.
* They do "stupid shit" because they are drunk. Things they would never have the balls to do if they were sober because they're afraid of their reputation and that others might think they're weird.
* They don't engage in meaningful philosophical conversations about life.
Maybe my view is a bit stereotypical. But in my experience, and I've been to a whole bunch of parties, there just doesn't happen anything particularly worthwhile. Im interested in art, psychology, philosophy, the human condition... The deeper and more meaningful topics of our human existence. These topics are not something that the average human spends any time with and they most certainly don't show up at parties. The reason why Im not interested in partying and meeting new people is because I've already done it. And there wasn't anything there. I want something more.
For that matter I really don't see what's such a huge accomplishment about having a social life. Some people enjoy any kind of shallow company, some people enjoy spending time on their own. And they both have their personal reasons for it. I hardly think one is more objectively worthwhile than the other, it's just a matter of different strokes for different folks. Speaking out of my own preference however I can definitely see why someone would rather be alone than constantly hang out with people, because most people are simply a disappointment. I also think that it's totally awesome being able to enjoy life by yourself, because you're gonna live your entire life being yourself so you should just get comfortable in your own company as soon as you can!
Another thing that is fascinating to me with people in my age is this obsession with travel. When you look at what most people do when they finish school, they "travel to see the world".
What the FUCK is there to see with the world? Every place is the same: There is houses. And idiots. The majority of human beings are not freethinkers, they are simply a collection-in-flesh of the norms that they are surrounded with and that hardly changes depending on what country they reside in. So when I look at other countries and other cultures, all that I see is different kinds of bullshit. There is nothing to learn from there. There is not a single country in this entire world that puts emphasis on individuality and individual liberty. I really don't know how to explain myself any better, but unlike most people I simply lack the need to travel anywhere. I don't understand what I could possibly gain from traveling to a different country.
I understand if someone wants to take like a "spiritual journey" and go to Tibet to meditate with a bunch of monks. Because let's face it, meditation is a very trippy healthy thing and I would understand if someone wants to focus more on enjoying the simplicity and fundamentals of life rather than working their ass off at a job they hate so they can buy shit they don't need. But that's not what London is talking about, is it? It's really just mass-consumption. Why the hell would someone want to swim with dolphins!? XD I'd understand if you want to pet the little nigga but that's more like a cute thought, hardly a life goal! Or. Is it? Maybe it is to him. And I can respect that.
But I do not respect the reasoning that the only way you can contribute to society is by having a job. A serial rapist could be having a highly esteemed job as a marine biologist. The people who run "GOD HATES FAGS" probably have very esteemed jobs as priests and grocery-packers in the local supermarket. The unempathic brute jock who likes beating people up during the weekends because he works so hard at the furniture-factory that he needs a release during his time off, has a job.
But none of these people are a positive contribution to society, are they? They are disgusting fascists who are unfamiliar with the concept of "to each to their own" and they hurt other people because of it. I don't believe in making a "contribution to society" but if we're gonna be talking about what's a positive contribution to mankind, then jobs really don't say shit about how much you're doing to enrichen other peoples lives for the better.
How does having a job contribute to society? Society is made out of people. We are surrounded by people. Other people affect our lives. What good is a society if everyone in it is a judgmental jackass who doesn't let other people lead their lives according to their own preference? People make us happy/unhappy. And even if you have a job, you can still be a complete fucking waste as a human being. London is evident of that.
I mean, when it all comes down to it... One reason why Im not particularly interested in being social and meeting new people: Is because of people like London. People like him are the "normal" ones. Why would I want to hang out with people who are intolerant and don't understand anything outside of their own personal taste? It just doesn't make any sense. Why would I want to hang out with people whom I have nothing in common with?
People, in my experience, are shit. Most people that I have met are useless pieces of flesh that I simply can't relate to whatsoever. I don't like them, and I shouldn't be forced to either. Because I don't harm them. I might have my own preferences but I don't keep other people from leading their lives according to theirs. And I am perfectly happy when I am away from them, leading my own life. I hate the notion that a massive-shallow-social life equals success. Since when did the exchange of simple-minded ideas and shallow information become synonymous with success?
I have 3 close friends in my life right now. And I really don't want any more. I am perfectly happy with the friends that I have. They are just awesome people. And guess what? I don't judge them by how much money they have or how many countries they have traveled to. If I did then I would be better off dead. Because people like that are what is wrong with the world.
During this entire argument the question popped up over and over again - What kind of a person does what London did? What kind of a person reasons like this: "He thinks he's a genius so I have to change his opinion, I absolutely CANT let him think highly of himself! It ruins my own life!"
Since he refuses to give me any elaborate reasoning I can only assume that he is jealous. I know that's a cliché judgment to make but what other reason could there possibly be? Why would someone get THAT upset by the idea that a person worked on a video that they are happy with and that there are people who enjoy it? It just doesn't make any other sense. Clearly it pisses him off that I can be perfectly happy jacking off with a 30 dollar videogame in my room while he has to work himself miserable and spend money on material possessions to feel like a valuable human being.
I think that I am indeed VERY aggravating to people who spend all of their time working and fretting over shallow nonsense such as money and social status. Because here you have a bum, who makes ART with video games, and considers himself to be a creative genius; Perfectly happy with what he does and how his life is at the moment. And guess what? HE HAS FANS FOR IT. The average working ant does not have fans. And that might piss them off.
I don't think that fans, fame and material success decides a persons value. Hitler had all of those things too and, well... He was hardly a nice guy. But you're damn sure Im gonna rub it in someones face when they make themselves deserving of it. After all, Im not the one who reasons like that. They are. And I am just communicating with them on their own level.
The question does pop up sometimes - Are they right? Do the haters have a point?
They could not possibly be right. They could not possibly have a point. I do not see it as a matter of opinion. I see it as a matter of fact.
Fact: Every human being is different. Different values. Different tastes. Different opinions. Different passions. Some people like swimming with dolphins. Some people like being creative. One is not more objectively worthwhile than the other: Your life is your own. Your body is your own. Your time is your own, to choose what you want to do with. And you should choose to make yourself happy.
I have no interest in the 9-to-5 working life. I have no interest in making myself miserable just so that I can say that I have a job. And I have no interest in a massive social life. I am a nerd; Definition is as following: prefers intellectual activities over social ones. (Though I do have to point out that hanging out with my friends counts as an intellectual activity, since we stimulate each other intellectually. That's because I chose to be friends with smart, stimulating people. There are not many of those)
As such, their life is not for me. And how could it possibly be right to fool myself into thinking that it is? You have to be honest with yourself. And the truth is that I really enjoy doing what I do. I am perfectly content with what I do. The only "problem" that ever turns up is other people who claim that I am not allowed to lead my own life according to my own wishes. But they are absurd. I live outside of society, despite being locked up in society. And that, to me, is the ideal. Other peoples fascism does not work on me.
I have now looked into the minds of the people who resent me and critique what I do.. And all that I see is everything that I have resented my entire life: Narrow-minded, judgmental, materialistic, shallow bullshit. The notion that "You are only worth something if you do the same things as everyone else".
I could see what happened as a pointless argument. But it isn't. Because now it is clear that every single person who has something negative to say about me is a narrow-minded piece of shit. There does not exist any more doubt. Now I know that it is pointless to ever give a person like that a chance to elaborate on their opinion of me. Because it's going to end with their argument being "UR A VIRGIN". And that really says it all, now doesn't it?