They see me rolliiiin' They hatiiiin'

I was recently involved in a skirmish on a forum that I frequent occassionally nowadays, TheSmackdownHotel. I posted my Saints Row video on there and a person came into the thread and started to perform character assassination. You can see it for yourself here, although some of the posts have been removed because Mr. Badwool cleaned up the thread a bit.

http://www.thesmackdownhotel.com/forum/topic/18639-teryo-law-vs-cory-ledesma-my-very-own-action-movie/#entry1549173

The administrator RKHT was kind enough to allow the "discussion". So I figured "great!". I saw it as a chance for myself to make the ultimate defensive statement against society. Almost a manifesto, if you will. Because you see, "Mr. London" embodies every stupid opinion that I have gotten thrown at me by penis-heads for the 7 years that I've been doing The Bumpmeister thing. He is rather good at expressing himself in text and neatly summed up everything that every single narrow-minded jackass has ever told me in form of critique about who I am and what I do. And I figured that if I ever come across a "hater" again, I can just link them to my post in that topic and I'll have said everything I need to say.

I didn't think a person like him would be able to read a text that long so I wasn't expecting much, though I can't deny that I was still hoping for a reply. Because arguing on the internet is fun, especially when it's a conversation about me. And it's surely a bonus when the argument is bumping my promotional topic and making more people read it.

Well. I only faced disappointment. He did reply but there was no deeper reasoning involved anywhere on his behalf, his posts simply consisted of shallow insults and him never failing to remind me that he has such an awesome life outside of the internet that he can't even be bothered to read my posts. Which is absurd. Why would you talk to someone if you're not even reading what they are saying? Why would you even initiate a conversation if you're not willing to hear their point of view?

It's clear now that he didn't want to do anything constructive. What he wanted to do was simply to lash out at someone and face no rebuttal for it, in order to reinforce his view of himself as the dominant alpha-male. And when the person doesn't bend over to his personal taste he insults them for it. What's even more absurd is that he couldn't understand my comparison to him being a rapist. And it's probably because of the very same reason I am calling him a rapist: His brain is unable to interpret any opinions other than his own.

Yet, still, I wanted to keep replying because it was giving my topic attention and, like I said, I saw it as a chance to defend myself against a terribly judgmental attitude that has been "haunting" me for my entire career. And I was curious to see what a person like him has to say about my view of the world and life, because I was actually open and honest about myself, with what I care about and what I love doing. And I suppose that I was at least expecting SOME kind of an exchange between my reasoning and his. But that was impossible, because he never adressed my reasoning. He ignored it and insulted the parts he felt like reading. Here is one part that he completely ignored that I considered to be pretty fundamental:

" And no, I don't have a job. I don't really fit into the typical structure of society, so Im trying to adapt best I can and find a place where I would feel content. But I don't see how that is really relevant to anything or how it could possibly be an insult. Do we really live in such a consumerist-society that a person's value is decided by their job? Not by their personality, actions and how kind they are to others? Granted, Im an asshole online sometimes, but you really don't know what Im like in real life.
 
See, this is my passion. I love to create. And I especially love to create with my character, Teryo Law. This is my joy, making little storylines. And I don't understand how other people can see themselves worthy of passing judgment on me and essentially say: "What you are doing is wrong. You need to work in a factory. Nevermind what you care about, IM telling you what you need to care about!". It's just narrow-minded. I don't pass judgment on other people for doing things I personally think is excruciatingly boring, such as school and 9-to-5-work, so I don't see how others can do the same to me. "

But it was just hopeless. Every single piece of reasoning that I posted was met with "TL;DR" (despite my posts being as long as his) and him trying to put everything I say into some kind of "arguing technique-category" in order to belittle me through analyzation. Shallow insults, and nothing else.

The official deathblow was when one of his arguments became: "UR A VIRGIN".
I mean. What are you even supposed to say to something like that? "NAH BRO I GET MAD PUSSY JUST WATCH ME BRO ILL RECORD A VIDEO OF MYSELF GETTIN MY DICK WET BRO". You just can't win against stupidity like that. Jesus christ, that sounds like the mentality of those Steubenville rapists.

And guess what? Im not a rapist jock. I don't hate women, I don't see them as numbers and I don't have any insecurity which forces me to overcompensate for my "manlyness". I don't consider a person's number of sex partners to be decisive of their value as a human being. And I actually consider those kind of judgmental values to be potentially dangerous; Just look at Steubenville.

By that point it was painfully clear that it could never possibly go anywhere. Then again, perhaps I should have been able to predict that from the start. When someone comes into a topic and treats their own opinion as fact it's pretty obvious that it couldn't possibly go anywhere constructive, you're just gonna be butting heads if you carry on with the conversation. But in all fairness, even if I knew that it wouldn't have kept me from posting in some form or another because attention is exactly what you want when you're promoting something.

I put this picture here just to break up the text and make it look more fashionable and easily readable. Good idea eh? Leon Blackgrave photoshopped that picture to make me look like The Crow. It looks fucking horrendeus. It made me lol. He also made one where Im a nigger. And he uploaded all of these on Twitter. XD Nigga is crazy!

Another thing that was amazingly absurd is him telling me that I can't take criticism. He comes into my topic, tells me that my video sucks and that I should get a job, and somehow that's "constructive criticism"? What kind of person is so incredibly narrow-minded and delusional that they would consider that to be some kind of constructive criticism?

And when I pretty much tell him that: "No, Im fine with what Im doing. Im happy with myself, Im happy with my art and Im happy doing what I do" I am faced with the reasoning that: "You can't handle criticism, ur just bitching cuz I don't like your video". Amazing. Just amazing. It reminds me of Daanesh and the type of shit he used to troll you with back in the day! And I'd like to think that London was trolling because that could have offered me more hope for mankind but sadly, I think that he was serious with every thing that he said. And that's very sad. It is mindbaffling and utterly insane that someone can be so incredibly delusional.

And yet, it's hardly a rare attitude that he has, now is it? His kind of reasoning is actually the norm in society. And that is very frightening. This is a list of things that he posted that he thinks prove that he is better than me and "owns me at the game of life":

" I, London*...
1) Have a successful job as an Operational Support manager for the UKs top security company in Cambridge.

2) I have a nice home which is paid for by me and filled with my belongings, not my parents belongings.

3) I have hobbies, writing screenplays and doing stand up comedy, as well as playing a number of different sports in my free time.

4) I can go on a nice holiday every year with the money I work hard to proudly earn.

5) I have a social life and go out every weekend to spend time with my friends and meet new people.

6) I don't get butthurt like a spoilt little brat just because somebody didn't like some stupid video that I wasted a month and a half of my life making.

7) I've swam with dolphins, done a bunjee jump, climbed mountains, celebrated birthdays in Amsterdam, Valencia and London, travelled all round the world, when I was 18 I flew to New York on my own and spent a week just exploring the city on my own, and I've experienced hundreds of amazing things, and Im only 24.

8) I get laid. "


What's frightening here is that the things he counted up is supposed to be some kind of measurement of quality. I don't understand how that could possibly be the case? How can it possibly be a measurement of quality to go out every weekend and talk shallow nonsense with shallow people?

I mean. You've probably been to a party, right? What happens at a party?
* People get drunk.
* They talk about how drunk they are.
* They do "stupid shit" because they are drunk. Things they would never have the balls to do if they were sober because they're afraid of their reputation and that others might think they're weird.
* They don't engage in meaningful philosophical conversations about life.

Maybe my view is a bit stereotypical. But in my experience, and I've been to a whole bunch of parties, there just doesn't happen anything particularly worthwhile. Im interested in art, psychology, philosophy, the human condition... The deeper and more meaningful topics of our human existence. These topics are not something that the average human spends any time with and they most certainly don't show up at parties. The reason why Im not interested in partying and meeting new people is because I've already done it. And there wasn't anything there. I want something more.

For that matter I really don't see what's such a huge accomplishment about having a social life. Some people enjoy any kind of shallow company, some people enjoy spending time on their own. And they both have their personal reasons for it. I hardly think one is more objectively worthwhile than the other, it's just a matter of different strokes for different folks. Speaking out of my own preference however I can definitely see why someone would rather be alone than constantly hang out with people, because most people are simply a disappointment. I also think that it's totally awesome being able to enjoy life by yourself, because you're gonna live your entire life being yourself so you should just get comfortable in your own company as soon as you can!

Another thing that is fascinating to me with people in my age is this obsession with travel. When you look at what most people do when they finish school, they "travel to see the world".

What the FUCK is there to see with the world? Every place is the same: There is houses. And idiots. The majority of human beings are not freethinkers, they are simply a collection-in-flesh of the norms that they are surrounded with and that hardly changes depending on what country they reside in. So when I look at other countries and other cultures, all that I see is different kinds of bullshit. There is nothing to learn from there. There is not a single country in this entire world that puts emphasis on individuality and individual liberty. I really don't know how to explain myself any better, but unlike most people I simply lack the need to travel anywhere. I don't understand what I could possibly gain from traveling to a different country.

I understand if someone wants to take like a "spiritual journey" and go to Tibet to meditate with a bunch of monks. Because let's face it, meditation is a very trippy healthy thing and I would understand if someone wants to focus more on enjoying the simplicity and fundamentals of life rather than working their ass off at a job they hate so they can buy shit they don't need. But that's not what London is talking about, is it? It's really just mass-consumption. Why the hell would someone want to swim with dolphins!? XD I'd understand if you want to pet the little nigga but that's more like a cute thought, hardly a life goal! Or. Is it? Maybe it is to him. And I can respect that.

But I do not respect the reasoning that the only way you can contribute to society is by having a job. A serial rapist could be having a highly esteemed job as a marine biologist. The people who run "GOD HATES FAGS" probably have very esteemed jobs as priests and grocery-packers in the local supermarket. The unempathic brute jock who likes beating people up during the weekends because he works so hard at the furniture-factory that he needs a release during his time off, has a job.

But none of these people are a positive contribution to society, are they? They are disgusting fascists who are unfamiliar with the concept of "to each to their own" and they hurt other people because of it. I don't believe in making a "contribution to society" but if we're gonna be talking about what's a positive contribution to mankind, then jobs really don't say shit about how much you're doing to enrichen other peoples lives for the better.

How does having a job contribute to society? Society is made out of people. We are surrounded by people. Other people affect our lives. What good is a society if everyone in it is a judgmental jackass who doesn't let other people lead their lives according to their own preference? People make us happy/unhappy. And even if you have a job, you can still be a complete fucking waste as a human being. London is evident of that.

I mean, when it all comes down to it... One reason why Im not particularly interested in being social and meeting new people: Is because of people like London. People like him are the "normal" ones. Why would I want to hang out with people who are intolerant and don't understand anything outside of their own personal taste? It just doesn't make any sense. Why would I want to hang out with people whom I have nothing in common with?

People, in my experience, are shit. Most people that I have met are useless pieces of flesh that I simply can't relate to whatsoever. I don't like them, and I shouldn't be forced to either. Because I don't harm them. I might have my own preferences but I don't keep other people from leading their lives according to theirs. And I am perfectly happy when I am away from them, leading my own life. I hate the notion that a massive-shallow-social life equals success. Since when did the exchange of simple-minded ideas and shallow information become synonymous with success?

I have 3 close friends in my life right now. And I really don't want any more. I am perfectly happy with the friends that I have. They are just awesome people. And guess what? I don't judge them by how much money they have or how many countries they have traveled to. If I did then I would be better off dead. Because people like that are what is wrong with the world.

During this entire argument the question popped up over and over again - What kind of a person does what London did? What kind of a person reasons like this: "He thinks he's a genius so I have to change his opinion, I absolutely CANT let him think highly of himself! It ruins my own life!"

Since he refuses to give me any elaborate reasoning I can only assume that he is jealous. I know that's a cliché judgment to make but what other reason could there possibly be? Why would someone get THAT upset by the idea that a person worked on a video that they are happy with and that there are people who enjoy it? It just doesn't make any other sense. Clearly it pisses him off that I can be perfectly happy jacking off with a 30 dollar videogame in my room while he has to work himself miserable and spend money on material possessions to feel like a valuable human being.

I think that I am indeed VERY aggravating to people who spend all of their time working and fretting over shallow nonsense such as money and social status. Because here you have a bum, who makes ART with video games, and considers himself to be a creative genius; Perfectly happy with what he does and how his life is at the moment. And guess what? HE HAS FANS FOR IT. The average working ant does not have fans. And that might piss them off.

I don't think that fans, fame and material success decides a persons value. Hitler had all of those things too and, well... He was hardly a nice guy. But you're damn sure Im gonna rub it in someones face when they make themselves deserving of it. After all, Im not the one who reasons like that. They are. And I am just communicating with them on their own level.

The question does pop up sometimes - Are they right? Do the haters have a point?

They could not possibly be right. They could not possibly have a point. I do not see it as a matter of opinion. I see it as a matter of fact.

Fact: Every human being is different. Different values. Different tastes. Different opinions. Different passions. Some people like swimming with dolphins. Some people like being creative. One is not more objectively worthwhile than the other: Your life is your own. Your body is your own. Your time is your own, to choose what you want to do with. And you should choose to make yourself happy.

I have no interest in the 9-to-5 working life. I have no interest in making myself miserable just so that I can say that I have a job. And I have no interest in a massive social life. I am a nerd; Definition is as following: prefers intellectual activities over social ones. (Though I do have to point out that hanging out with my friends counts as an intellectual activity, since we stimulate each other intellectually. That's because I chose to be friends with smart, stimulating people. There are not many of those)

As such, their life is not for me. And how could it possibly be right to fool myself into thinking that it is? You have to be honest with yourself. And the truth is that I really enjoy doing what I do. I am perfectly content with what I do. The only "problem" that ever turns up is other people who claim that I am not allowed to lead my own life according to my own wishes. But they are absurd. I live outside of society, despite being locked up in society. And that, to me, is the ideal. Other peoples fascism does not work on me.

I have now looked into the minds of the people who resent me and critique what I do.. And all that I see is everything that I have resented my entire life: Narrow-minded, judgmental, materialistic, shallow bullshit. The notion that "You are only worth something if you do the same things as everyone else".

I could see what happened as a pointless argument. But it isn't. Because now it is clear that every single person who has something negative to say about me is a narrow-minded piece of shit. There does not exist any more doubt. Now I know that it is pointless to ever give a person like that a chance to elaborate on their opinion of me. Because it's going to end with their argument being "UR A VIRGIN". And that really says it all, now doesn't it?

Everyone Needs To See This Bizarre Delight

Once again it's time for me to tell you to watch a movie without knowing anything about it. Asking you to depend solely on my personal taste and opinion of what a masterpiece is.

Okay, I can tell you a little.

A brilliant plastic surgeon, haunted by past tragedies, creates a type of synthetic skin that withstands any kind of damage. His guinea pig: a mysterious and volatile woman who holds the key to his obsession. 

The point of a movie review is to tell other people whether or not a movie is good so that they can decide whether or not to watch it. Well, what made this movie so enjoyable to me is the fact that I didn't know every single thing about it. As such, I don't want to say a single thing about it, because I think that ruins it. I think it's best to watch a movie when you are in the right mood, without knowing much at all about it. Because then everything becomes a surprise and the experience is just much more enjoyable.

But, mark my words, if you have the same taste in movies as I do then you are very likely to enjoy this one.

This movie is an inspiration. And a necessary experience for any artist. By the end I was just sitting there, digesting what made this experience such a perverse delight. I sat through the entire credits, listening to the music, just thinking about what I had witnessed and appreciating it, reveling in the moment. Movies like this inspire me. And I actually felt jealous because I don't know if I could ever come up with a twist that is so brilliant, and make something like this. And the structure, oh lord. Starting right in the middle and then telling the story from the beginning works perfectly in this movie. It's actually what makes the entire movie. Just brilliant. I was sitting there with huge saucer eyes when the twist came, just absolutely taken. It was great. Im so glad I watched this.

This is a movie that I would like to dissect some day, in how it is delivered. The structure of it all. I want to dissect that and really soak in all of the small little details in the beginning. Because I think there's something to learn here about the potential of structure. The structure in a movie can turn it into a masterpiece. How a story is told can make such a huge impact.

Watch it. I give it 9/10. The only thing that takes away is that Im kind of unsure on the ending.

Saints Row: The Teryo Law Action Movie

I am used to having control. Whenever I make a bumpvideo, that's what I do. I control where the characters are supposed to stand. I control how they are supposed to move. I control what taunt they do and when they do it. I control how they act when they say a certain sentence, and what spot I am going to do. I simply control what everything looks like.

All of that control wasn't possible with this game. Because this game is chaos. You can't control most of what happens. Or, well, that's not entirely true. It would have been possible to make even more detailed and structured action-scenes than what I did. But it would have taken months, and that's some time that I just simply can't afford. And not to mention that you would still be depending on random factors such as characters out of your control hopefully doing what you want rather than you being able to decide, so nah, it's just not worth it. For this video, I decided that I was going to be lazy and settle for "decent".

Which isn't really saying much because I still put a shitload of effort into it. But it still wasn't the amount of effort that I could have been putting into it.
Nevertheless. The method for making the action-scenes in this video has been pretty interesting: Record a bunch of stuff and then edit it together best you can.

When you do an action-scene, you improvise. You record yourself playing the same mission over and over and over again. You try to think of cool shit. And then you edit the best parts out and try to piece it together into a story.

Some things were completely random.
Some things were me just playing a mission.
Some things were carefully planned-out parts.
Everything was improvised. Because there is just no planning with this game. Just playing and seeing what happens.

You try to think of cool shit and plan some parts, and it pays off, because the start of the bar-shootout was the result of that. (Throwing the grenade was planned, the 3 headshots in a row happened by accident) But there's still a limit to how much you can prepare yourself and how much you can control. At the end of the day, some of the coolest stuff happens by random.

Working with this video has been an exercise in mastering the random. And it's an interesting exercise because despite the fact that everything was improvised and a lot of things happened by random, you were still able to give it structure and create some fantastic coherent stuff.

The work method has been to harbor a shitload of footage and use the best to make it a scene. For the last action-scene, for example, I recorded 2-3 hours worth of gameplay footage. And then I spent several hours going over that footage and cutting out the best parts. And then I spent several more hours (broken up over a few days) putting the pieces together in a way that makes sense. Despite the fact that the clips are from different playthroughs of the same mission.

All in all: Recording the mission playthroughs, going over all that I had recorded, editing out the best parts and pieceing together some of the first clips; Took me from 1 PM to 1AM to do.

This is what it looked like for the last action-scene. Quite a bit of clips.

One thing that is particularly pleasant with this video is the stripclub-metaphor to backstage arenas and hacks/edits during Teryo's long monologue about how everything developed over the years. That metaphor occured by accident. I did kind of plan on using the stripclub for the first sentence, but having him enter the strip-club and the footage used when he talks about "loopholes that let us do amazing things" wasn't planned. I got that idea while editing. It simply became more of a metaphor than I originally planned. And lovely small similar things happened all throughout the making of this video. I would frequently surprise myself with how good some things turned out, planned or not.

Y'know, its weird. This video started out as, and was always, a side-project. A random side-project. Not planned. I had no meaningful philosophical purpose for myself when I set out to create it. And while I was making it, I suffered through the most of it; thinking "I just need to get this damn thing done so I can start working on the videos I actually got planned". I had no feeling of passion with this video either. I forced myself to finish it and it made me pretty miserable.

But thanks to this project, I have learned an immensely important lesson. About being an artist. And true creativity and talent. When I forced myself to work all of those times when I REALLY didn't feel "creative" or was inspired or even felt the urge to create/work, and STILL managed to create fantastic results... That taught me that being creative is a talent. Not a random personal trait that works through random moments of inspiration.

Nah, it's a talent. And a TALENT is the result of hard work. It is the result of repetition and effort. Someone once said that "success is a habit". And that's not just a witty catch-phrase with no substance, it's the truth.

So thanks to this video, I learned that you can be creative without feeling inspired. Because being creative, is an ability. Not a mood. I used to have this image in my head of how "YOU CAN ONLY CREATE IF YOU FEEL INSPIRED" but that image has been destroyed now. You can create inspiration by yourself.

I have learned this through experience. Effort is completely underrated. It doesn't matter what you think or feel about what you have to do. It doesn't matter if you feel inspired or not. If you just sit down, and fucking WORK, and put EFFORT into whatever it is that you have to create - something genius is going to fall out sooner or later. And if it hasn't, it's just because you didn't spend enough time with it.

Did you see the epic speech that Teryo pulls for his "troops" near the end of the video?

When I was supposed to make a speech for that part, I had no idea what to do. I didn't know where to start and I didn't feel like working on it. I sat there, in front of the PC, and Im not sure but I think I sat there for like an hour or two, just doing nothing. Just trying to piece shit together. For a moment I was thinking: "Maybe I should just leave it alone. I don't feel like working on it right now and I don't want to force myself because I might create something that's half-assed if I do that."

What you're feeling is completely irrelevant. It is your effort that makes things happen.

I had the first sentence that felt kinda hipster-ish and corny, with Teryo refusing to do the speech and questioning why he even has to do it. Then I just built off that. And at the end, I created a speech that is absolutely fucking PERFECT for the Teryo Law character! It works so well and it becomes an epic Hollywood moment while poking fun and criticising the "epic Hollywood moment" that's supposed to come at the end of a video before a big battle. I knew that's what was going to happen at that part in the video so I kinda just ridiculed it. And best of all, it was honest. And that's something that I wanted to do as well. I wanted to do something honest. Not something strained.

At first, I was thinking of giving up because I didn't "feel like it" and was afraid it would turn out half-assed because of that. But then I created a masterpiece. Completely honest, genuine and not the least bit half-assed. Because it had energy put into it.

At first I doubted myself, and sitting there and trying to create when you're not feeling creative felt wrong. But it's just an illusion. There are so many times when Im afraid to work at something because I
A) Don't know where to start.
B) Am afraid that I am going to fail because Im not in the right mood.

That entire notion is misconstrued. Because success is the result of effort. So if you fail, that is only because you didn't spend enough effort working on what you wanted to achieve. There is no "failing cuz Im not in the mood". It doesn't exist. The only thing that exists when you have a strong work ethic is success.

And I think that this misconstrued notion in our heads about how you have to be inspired to create something fantastic comes from the simple fact that human beings are just lazy. If you're a creative person who does creative things, chances are that you only sit down and work at something when you FEEL like it. When you FEEL inspired. When you FEEL "in the mood" and you FEEL creative. Why?

Because that's the easy thing to do! That's when you feel like it the most and it's the most fun to do! And you want to have fun, so it kinda just happens like that. But pay close attention, because what happens there is that you only bother sitting down and working on something creative when you feel like it, and you never realize that you can create without "feeling like it". You fool yourself into believing that you need to feel inspired first, to create a masterpiece second. And that is completely wrong. Inspiration is something that you can create for yourself, by putting effort into thinking, trying things out and daring to explore ideas even if you're not in the mood.
 
I suffered during the making of this video. And I don't plan on working on every video like this. Usually I am passionate about my projects and working on them includes more fun than I had with this project.
But what I have learnt is invaluable: It's the lesson of work ethic. If I ever want to create, but I don't feel like it or am afraid that I will fail, I can just force myself. And I will still succeed and get fantastic results.

Now don't get me wrong. I think that inspiration is a lovely thing when it happens. I usually create through bursts of inspiration that almost seem out of my control. But I think it's a fantastic thing to know that you can create completely on your own as well, when you want, without depending on such a fluctuent thing as mood.

The fantastic thing here, that I have discovered, is that there are two methods:
1. Inspiration, where you stumble across a fantastic revelation that you want to share with the world and it hardly feels like you're working at all. (Even though you're spending massive amounts of energy and working your ass off)
2. Hard Work, where you're painfully forcing yourself to get results.

And they both get equally good results.

Extreme Moments videos suck ASS

Look at this fucking asshole. He doesn't even acknowledge the fact that his videos are utterly mediocre nonsense and deserve every bit of criticism that he gets. He has the fucking nerve to act like he "started something" and is above all criticism.


Let me tell you something. Once upon a time there was a guy called Teryo Law, who along with Icemg1k, Monkfish and Daanesh created a scene that became insanely popular. Everybody who played SVR knew what a bumpvideo was and rightfully so, because they were CREATIVE and MINDBLOWING and deserved every amount of attention that they got.

What happened then? In 2008 people lost interest in bumpvideos, it stopped being popular and fell completely into oblivion. It became an obscure underground thing and the fame years of 2006-2007 were defined as a fad.

Then what? In the year 2011 videos called "Extreme Moments" started popping up on YouTube. They are essentially bumpvideos but without the creativity. It IS spots but it's spots that anyone can do and they aren't special in any way whatsoever. An "Extreme Moments" video consists of a bunch of TLC moves that anyone can do while playing a TLC match. It takes no effort to record and you don't have to be creative with the content.

And that has become very popular. Like he says, there is an "Extreme Moments" video on YouTube with 1 million views: That's way more than any bumpvideo ever had. I know that YouTube is a lot more popular now than it was in 2007 and that it is more intergrated with todays wrestling games, considering the highlight reel; But STILL - Fact of the matter is that Extreme Moments videos are POPULAR. More so than bumpvideos have ever been and it's a complete fucking utter abomination. I mean, it takes NO GOD DAMN TALENT!

Right now I imagine some people are reading this shit thinking "oh look at that angry nerd living in the past" but I have EVERY god damn right to be annoyed at a thing like this.
FACT: A Bumpvideo takes a hell of a lot more effort than an Extreme Moments video.
FACT: A Bumpvideo is a hell of a lot more creative than an EM video.
FACT: EM videos are Bumpvideos without the creativity and talent.
FACT: EM videos get much more attention and exposure than a Bumpvideo ever has.

How can you not get annoyed at that? Anyone who cares about justice and seeing people get what they deserve should be annoyed at that. This is pretty much like having a really talented band that happens to be underground, and seeing them get shit on by the entire world who goes and listens to Justin Bieber instead. OF COURSE it fucking annoys you if you have any sense for logic! It just isn't fair, it makes no god damn sense and it's annoying that people with talent are disregarded for people with no talent. Especially when you're a part of that group of talented people and it's something you're passionate about. You put a lot of effort into it only to see it get disregarded for something that is worse in quality. But hey, maybe that's all the more reason to keep being the creative nutjob that stands out from the rest and keep making your creative shit.

Im just looking at this shit and thinking: In 2006 peoples minds were blown by creativity and they knew about us Bumpmeisters who were doing amazing creative things with these games.

THEN, years later, you have this new generation of kids who grow up with these really shitty "Extreme Moments" videos and for some inexplicable reason they love it. MORE than they ever did with bumpvideos. And it becomes a popular thing while everyone completely forgets about what existed before: Bumpvideos. Bumpvideos which were replaced with something less creative: And they gave it a new name. So everyone would forget about bumpvideos.

What the hell is that? Like. This new generation of people don't even know what a bumpvideo is, but they are watching a shitty one and praising it to high heavens. I just don't get that. It's like nothing we did ever mattered. Despite the insane popularity we had we didn't contribute to the SVR-videomakers scene as a whole. This new generation of people just completely forget about the OLD generation that actually brought something new to the table, and soak up the new mediocre shit. People are actually evolving towards tasteless stupidity. And it really makes me think that wow, everything we did absolutely does not fucking matter. Really. The only people we inspired were ourselves.

This is what the musicians of the 70's must feel about the music landscape of today. In the 70's you had amazing out-of-the-box bands like The Doors as the mainstream thing. They had talent and meaning in their music. Now, it's Justin Bieber. He has very little talent and absolutely no meaning. The mainstream doesn't HAVE to be a terrible thing, Nirvana is a fantastic band that deserved to be recognized and they were mainstream in the 90's. But it is. The mainstream has become a terrible thing.

All this makes me wonder: What the hell were bumpvideos? What were they to other people? What difference did we make? I mean, when you really look at how bumpvideos affected the general SVR gaming public it seems like it really didn't matter at all. What we did, absolutely did not matter.

People have told me "You should be proud, man. You started something. Not everyone has done that".

First of all, WE started something - Not I. But who gives a fuck if we started something when it hasn't left any kind of imprint on the world? We started something, and then it ended and fell into oblivion. What good is that?

I mean, if you're gonna look at this you gotta look at it right: And all the bumpscene was good for is a temporary fix. It didn't change the gaming landscape for the better. It didn't make any kind of influence on the "making videos with wrestling games" art. Like I said, the only people we inspired were ourselves. It let me be creative and explore my creativity. And in the long run I would like to think that getting involved with bumpvideos is what got me into art. It also let me live out my child dreams of being a wrestler and I got to be one, virtually. I got to experience fame. I got to appreciate it and become sick of it, fed up with it and take it for granted. Just like Kurt Cobain.

Maybe there is a lesson to learn from that, but Im not sure I have. Because I still have that craving to make a huge impact. I still have that craving for power and fame. The power of a voice and influencing people. In a way I know that the pursuit for fame and recognition is a self-destructive tale. But in an other way, I don't have anywhere else to go. I have nothing else to pursuit: It feels like the only reasonable road to head down.

Maybe there is a difference between fame and recognition. To seek fame is a product of the consumerist society and it is also rooted in fear of death and insecurity. To seek recognition for your work, however, is only human.

A long time ago I reached a plateu where it felt like I was completely content with only having a handful of fans and not making a major difference in the world with my art. But every once in a while, time and time again, I return to that place of massive ego and greed and get annoyed at things like this. I get annoyed that creative genius, my genius, isn't being recognized. And maybe that's just a part of being a self-loathing narcissistic creative person that I need to keep in check, to constantly remind myself of keeping perspective on the positive things and the greater picture.

See, Im looking at this completely wrong. It's not about changing the entire world. It's not about making a huge impact and changing everything for the better. I mean. That's just pointless. The world is always going to be a result of other peoples stupidity because there's just way too damn many of them. But maybe there is something you can do that gives You joy at least, something that enrichens Your life and makes it more worth living. And it just so happens to be something that also enrichens the lives of other people, the few people in the world that are like-minded. You don't have to compromise for them because whatever you put out, they get it. And it's something that makes you evolve and learn new things. I know that there's a lot of positive things that I've experienced and gotten out of Bumpmeistering. One of the most notable is all the experience you get as a movie director. And hell, I even saved a guy from killing himself with my whole Teryo Law thing. So it's definitely not bad. It's good.

Yeah, you know what? Don't take my ranting seriously. I just got pissy there for a moment. Pissy and greedy. But it's all good. This ventilation served a purpose. Writing shit down when you're angry can be so insightful. It can really get you back on track, or let you find new ideas for things. In this case, I just had to remind myself of what I already know. What I already learned several months ago.

Disregard what I said. Im good with being the creative bum living in obscurity. I just have to be. :)

WHEN WILDIN OUT GOES BAD: DMX Tries To Reunite With His Son

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNdE-WcnKIQ

When I watched that I started laughing my ass off.

I know that it's not funny! It's actually very sad. But what I see in that clip is the rapper DMX being put in an absurd situation for his character. XDDDDD Think of this like a TV-show where you have someone who is a badass being dragged into a really sobby situation that's soooo not right for him. It's kind of like putting the Teryo Law character in 'Days Of Our Lives'. It does not work out.

I mean. His son is a sensitive and soft-spoken young man and he is trying to reason on an emotional level with a HARD ASS NIGGA FROM THE HOOD. I really shouldn't find other peoples misery amusing but god damn it, I can't help looking at it out of a Character Being Put In Absurd Situation/TV-show spinoff/Seinfeld perspective!!

But this is also very interesting. DMX is known as possibly the "hardest" rapper alive and what you see in that clip is that.. It's NOT really an act. 8| That's what he is like.And it is causing problems to his personal life. Basically, that clip shows you how being a "wild nigga" affects your life when you're not on stage and in magazines.

I think that's really interesting because it shows that the hard cocky attitude isn't a viable option to lead your life by. It might make you look like a badass in front of your peers and people might not try to bully you but it also hurts you in the long run. The "no bullshit, I aint gonna take yo shit nigga, Ima pop off at any second" kind of attitude that he has causes problems when it comes to maintaining good relationships with people you care about. And look at the way that he handles criticism. He obviously can't handle being told something he doesn't like. I know we all don't enjoy it, but he looks like he is about to explore.

I just think it's interesting to explore the part of the "wild gangsta" that we don't see. And what we see here in this clip is not the rap icon/stereotype. It's the human being.

Another interesting aspect someone pointed out is: " If you took the DMX off that dude he a crack head. And what child wouldn't tell their crack head ass irresponsible parent get clean so we can have a functional relationship. If he wasn't a celebrity most of you would look at the situation so diffrently. "

And it's a solid point. I mean, I see so many people defending DMX on the video comments and talking ridiculous shit about his son but there really is no defending a drug addict who can't handle being a decent family man. At least according to his own family. If people hadn't grown up listening to his music and enjoying his music and forming illusions about the artist because of his music: They would have a different perspective. They wouldn't defend a random alcoholic/drug addict who has scarred his children.


Interview With His Son About The Show

DMX On Fix My Life Full UNCUT Episode



 

Female Rappers

This post is unrelated to my previous one about Snow. This one is just about female rappers in general. Though I did think of this when writing about Snow so consider her a part of that majority.


Look at this video.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dHULK1M-P08

Two things.

Number One: It's interesting to look at the comments on that video and then compare it to the comments on a video by a male rapper. If you look up a video on YT by 50 Cent or Lil B, there's not gonna a fucking discussion that flares up about feminism and whether or not the rapper is promoting the right values.

Don't get me wrong, of course there are people who think that rap is disgusting altogether because of the stereotypical lyrical content that is pretty much everywhere except for a minority of cases. BUT - Look at the comments. On a video by a male rapper, critical comments towards the stereotypical rap ideology are in a minority. On a video by a female rapper, it's a majority. The discussion doesn't even exist when it comes to male rappers because people have pretty much decided for "it is what it is, oh those crazy gangsta niggaz!". But when a WOMAN does it, all you see on that videos comments is people discussing philosophy and gender with another. And how gross it is.

Somehow, the "rap attitude" is much more disgusting when a woman does it. I'd like you to ponder that for a second. What does it mean? Does it mean that we're just stupid misogynists? Or does it mean that because of the image that has been imprinted into our minds by society since birth, about how women are "pure and innocent creatures", a stereotypical rapping female just brings out everything that's disgusting about rap more than a male rapper. Because society accepts the male rapper talking about fucking bitches. It doesn't accept the female rapper talking about fucking bitches.

A comment on her video said this: "  Yeah.. the only reason everyone thinks this video is horrible and "rachet" is because she's a woman. When male rappers make videos like this no one has anything negative to say. "

Sadly, that is true. I mean sure, the video IS horrible and ratched. But the fact of the matter is that she gets way more hate and shit thrown at her than any male rapper. And the hate and shit that male rappers get thrown at them never has to do with their gender either, or why they are "disgusting for bragging about having sex with so many women". Because it's not the number of partners that's disgusting to people.

Personally, I think all modern rap music is disgusting. Except for Tyler The Creator, he's actually good. But I can't even bring myself to watch people like "Wacka Flocka" or "Wiz Khalifa". To be honest, I have not heard any of their music and I would never want to either because I already know what it is: Generic radio bullshit.

Me, personally? What do I think of the Brooke Candy video?

I just don't like the way it sounds. It sounds like modern fucking bullshit. I really can't explain the structure of the sound because I haven't analyzed it in-depth, but I HATE that "modern electronical sound" that's everywhere... It's very, like... Techno-inspired. In the worst way possible.

Like for example - I love the way Eminems music sounded back in 2000: His beats, his hooks, his samples and sounds and everything. But I HATE the way it sounds now! Listen to "Role Model" and then compare it to "Not Afraid" and you'll see what I mean. The new song sucks ass because it has that modern sound to it that is everywhere. And this isn't a matter of me being a hipster either because I loved the old school rap sound back when it was actually the modern thing. But NOW, the "modern thing" is electronica with no substance.

Also, her voice is annoying and she sounds like a stereotype. 
However I do have to give her a lot of credit for actually making a good point in a rap song, because it really is nobody's business who she is fucking with and I think that the whole "GIRLS ARENT ALLOWED TO SLEEP WITH MANY GUYS BUT ITS OKAY FOR GUYS TO DO IT" is disgusting and demeaning, not only to women, but to any sensible human being with the capacity to construct elaborate thoughts.

My initial impression of the music and video was "UGH, DISGUSTING". But as I have been writing this post and really looked deeper into it and thought about it: I actually think she is pretty cool. She looks like a hip-hop Marilyn Manson.

And it's not only appearance, she is sexual and subversive. I can't say I dislike the video because it's weird and there are naked people present. Also, I like the fact that she let random hood people be in the video. Normal people, not people who are supermodels as in every MTV video. But still, Im not gonna say it's something I could be bothered to listen to. It feels half-assed. And unlike Manson the lyrics/music is hardly thoughtful and artistic.


Number Two: I think it's fascinating how female rappers are no less disgusting and shallow than male rappers. It's all the same shit. "Smoke weed and fuck hoes". Then again that's pretty much what GG Allin makes music about too, only he does it in a way that appeals to my taste.

When you look at this out of a "feminist" perspective: Is this what women have been fighting for? Equality: To be equally shallow and stupid as male rappers. Then again, maybe that's exactly the point. Women were never different from men to begin with. If you take a woman and let her be rapstar, or if you take a man and let him be a rapstar: They are both gonna be singing about shallow shit. And thus, we must get rid of this notion that we are so different from one another based on senseless credentials like gender. We're all human beings. And sadly, most of us as dumbasses with values based on materialism.

As a whole I guess you could say that it's good that females are entering into the rap business and some progress is being made in society. But why the hell is that progress towards something disgusting? Do we really need more rap stereotypes?

I just think that if I were a girl and wanted to be a rapper I would make music about something worthwhile. I think it would be awesome to be a female artist. Do you realize how much attention I'd get? Not only because of my open attitude towards sexuality but also because I am intelligent and can back up my opinions. Girls aren't allowed to do that. If they do, they are "bitches". And as such, if I were a female artist, there would be so much more I'd want to do and could do than a song which is essentially just going "FUCK BITCHES". Maybe this is just a matter of me being transexual and jealous that other people get a chance and aren't doing things the right way. Or, my comprehension of what "the right way" would be.

I just think that as a female artist you have more potential to change the world for the better because everything you do is more obscene than when a man does it. Thus, you are granted a rather special place in society because of your gender and you can use that to be even more controversial and stir peoples minds into thinking and questioning their stupid beliefs. And there is a responsibility you can assume towards society, and say to yourself: "Alright. This is what society looks like. Females are underrepresented and there is a view of them as weak and incapable - So because of that, I am going to give justice to the image of the strong intelligent woman. Unlike most men in this business I am going to sing about something that matters".

But it would be unfair of me to demand that of other people. Because... Maybe people simply don't think like that. Maybe they aren't interested in that. Clearly girls are just as shallow and horny as guys. And it's wrong of me to expect that any one single person would want to change society's skewed perception of things because it is, indeed, skewed from the beginning. And it is thus not something that the individual is responsible for. They can choose to change it if they wish but it is ultimately not their fault nor responsibility. And people aren't interested in changing the world. They just want to be stupid and have fun. Just because you have the chance and the ability, doesn't mean that you have the desire to try and change other peoples stupidity. Because girls, just as guys, just want to be stupid and have fun.























 As for Brooke Candy though, maybe Im wrong: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EV-IjiCHW6Q

Maybe she is getting a message across and someone really does feel empowered by her music. I don't understand why. But maybe. I watched that interview with her where she says that she gets fan mails that pretty much tell her that she makes other people more confident in themselves. I mean, if anything, that's a result.

I think I misjudged her. She seems like a person with good values. But her music still sucks ass and doesn't really get any message across. Maybe her personality does, but her music doesn't.

Amazing Girl Rapper, buuuuut...

I came across this female rapper on YouTube by the name of "Snow Tha Product".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVQyMIpGqaI

She is very very talented. Just amazing, really. I am impressed. You know, people tend to put rap down as something that is "stupid" and easy to do. But it's not. Me and my friends made a rap song once for fun and god-fucking-damnit, it takes TALENT to rap. Just try putting a rap song together and you'll find out for yourself. Not everyone can do it, and it tends to piss me off when someone says that rap music doesn't require talent because the ability to rap like that pretty much equals playing complex solos on a guitar.

And that's kind of where we reach the turning point of this topic - She does have amazing talent. But what is she spending it on? Absolute nonsense. I am impressed by her ability to rap but I am not impressed by the lyrical content. What is that? It's the exact kinda shit that black rappers have been pulling for years: Shallow penis-obsessed ego bullshit. I mean, there's really no depth to it. She just talks about being cocky.

And I just think it's a shame. Here, you have a girl who has the guts to stand out - which most girls simply don't - and she is amazingly talented. But she spends that talent on being a rap stereotype. Like, where the hell is the subversiveness? I mean, maybe Im being delusional but from seeing a interview with her it seems to me like she is a intelligent person. She could be making cool ground-breaking music. Like Mindless Self Indulgence who mix rap/punk/electronica.

Like I said, she seems intelligent. She seems to have more in her brain than that. She talks about wanting to become a psychologist or do something that helps other people. Then her lyrics go "BITCH IM A MONSTER LIKE CHUBACCA BUT I AM CRUNK AS WACKA FLOCKA" and "I WILL OFF ANY BITCH TRYING TO START WIT A DISS".

I checked out another song by her called "Til Death" that's supposed to be something different and a bit more emotional. And yeah, it is different. From the other songs on the album. It still sounds like absolutely generic mainstream radio pop.

I mean, I really don't want to shit on someones dreams because apparently that's what she wants to do and she should be allowed to do it. Im just thinking, if you're gonna be versatile: Go all out with it. I think it's a shame to see potential be wasted. She could be making an ever bigger positive impact on the world if she had a proper message in her music and not just mindless content. I mean. She's a girl. And an amazing rapper. There's something special about that combo. Why not make it even more special? I guess Im just thinking about what I would have wanted to do as an artist in her place.

I think it's a shame to see talent get spent on nonsense. Then again, maybe that's the way my teacher reasoned about me making dirty sex novels in school in 6th grade. She would tell me my mom "He has such writing talent but the content is just filth!". In fact, all the teachers said that. Maybe that's the same thing.

I don't know.

I know exactly what I want to do when Im old.

http://www.xvideos.com/video3823742/old_man_fucking_cute_teen_girl


Imagine fucking beautiful girls like that when you're 70 just because there are people in the world with a "older man/grandpa" fetish. Fucking awesome. Who says you gotta turn into a boring zombie when you get older? Im going out swingin. Im gonna be fucking 18 year olds and snorting heroin left and right. Because when you're that close to dying, who really gives a fucking shit?

Over and out.

Regards to The Previous Post on FacialAbuse.com

I found this today: http://clayrabeau.blogspot.se/2010/12/hard-city-indeed.html

It's a pornstar who did FacialAbuse and then wrote a blog entry about it. Scroll down a bit to the part that starts with "Then the shit started. I was headed to a shoot with Facial Abuse". As you can imagine, it wasn't anything positive.

Also, she had this to say on AdultDVDTalk.

To be honest, I don't know if I can look at it without dredging up the fucked up feelings it gave me again. I'm all for some rough sex. I was happy with my scene for Public Disgrace, and I can't wait for Princess Donna to get back to the USA so I can get in on Bound Gang Bangs, but Facial Abuse was exactly what they say in the title: Abuse with a facial at the end. Frankly, I don't care how much you like rough sex, if you get off on FA scenes, I hope you realize you're getting off on one girl hating that she made the wrong choice, and a couple dudes having orgasms. For me, porn has ALWAYS been about people enjoying EACH OTHER, and even when it's just fantasy (yeah, some girls fake it) it is still a fantasy about PLEASURE. If you get off on beating people, you're a sick fuck. This isn't even a freedom of speech or "bad taste" issue. When people are getting hurt for real and NOT enjoying it at all, it isn't art or fantasy anymore, so fuck you for hiding your fucked up bullshit behind something so sacred as the First Amendment. It's not the same as Kink or typical BDSM sites. Or, in the words of D-FENS (from Falling Down), "We are not the same. I'm an American, you're a sick asshole".


Couldn't agree with her more. She said it perfectly. I just wish she would have been bothered to do a lawsuit against them. Even though their contract is very sketchy and frees them from "all physical and mental suffering that might have occured during the shoot".

Also, guess what? Today I listened to a radio interview with the man behind FA: Duke Skywalker. Apparently he has a girlfriend. I just can't believe that. I can't believe anyone would want to touch that rapist piece of shit.

Someone Please Kill The Creators of FacialAbuse.com

Okay. I decided a long time ago that I didn't want to write anything about this site because I don't want to promote what they are doing in any way whatsoever. But I just can't fucking take it anymore because I just saw a clip that really disgusted and aggravated me.

This: http://www.efukt.com/21056_The_Harlem_Struggle.html

I've seen a lot of videos with www.facialabuse.com that were bad, but this is the worst thing so far. There isn't even a possibility for her to SAY "No" so she is violently signalizing it with her body. What do they do? They completely ignore her. That is the most inhumane disgusting bullshit I have ever seen. And it is blatant rape that they will later sell as porn.

If you aren't familiar with this site, well I don't know where to start explaining it. It's supposed to be "really rough porn" but it isn't even close to "rough porn", it is blatant rape and sexual exploitation of people who are amateurs in the business and don't know how things are done.

Another example
http://www.efukt.com/20493_Midget_Quits_Anal_Scene.html


You see, what FacialAbuse do is that they almost exclusively hire amateur girls who are looking to make it in the business and don't have any idea of how things are done. Because those girls are perfect victims. They don't have any experience, they don't know how to negotiate and they don't know how to say no. And the people who make FacialAbuse make sure to manipulate and exploit them as "stupid whores".

Almost every single girl that you see on their website roster is someone that you haven't seen before, and they are someone you most likely will never see again because the experience is so traumatizing for them that it will make them abandon porn altogether. The evidence speaks for itself. You see a girl on FA. They do a video. Cry. Never show their face again.

Porn giant Gina Lynn did FA once. When asked in a interview about if she's ever done something she questioned was legal, she had this to say: " I did do a scene for Facial Abuse.com and will never do it again. I think that is drawing the line and its probably only a matter of time until they are looked at. "

But they haven't been looked at. And I think that is very upsetting. I just can't understand how they are possibly allowed to keep doing what they are doing? How in the fucking hell is that company allowed to exist? THEY HAVE GOD DAMN CAMERA EVIDENCE OF RAPE AND THEY ARE SELLING IT TO PEOPLE.

It's obvious that human rights are being violated in their porno shoots when girls break down and cry and don't want to continue doing any more - Yet are forced to do it. Why?
Two reasons:
1. Money.
2. Shock.

Let me explain to you why someone can be forced into doing something like that against their will. Now, I don't see the point in re-writing things that other people have laid out perfectly so Im just gonna be doing quotes here, this is from the porn forum AdultDVDTalk and a thread about FacialAbuse. This is by a member called StillHope. They explain it better than I can.

" Also, the reason I don't think the girls are told everything is because in Hannah's scene, Duke directs Big Red to turn around and shove his ass in her face. He tells her to eat it and she looks at him and says out loud "Are you serious?" No way she was told ass eating was part of the scene. Also, he commands her to bark like a dog, which she refuses, he literally grabs her head, grits his teeth and says "Fuckin do it, I am not playin around here"

Now, I know rough sex fans will cry "She could have stopped the scene if she wanted to", and again you are right, she could have. But for two seconds realize you are dealing with girls who for the most part have never done a porn before and they really need the money. They think if they refuse to do something that they won't get paid. Think about it, you get throat pumped to the point of puking for 10-15 minutes, then you refuse to eat the guy's ass, and are sent home with no paycheck. If that is what you think will happen, then most likely you are gonna eat the guy's ass even if you don't want to. If the subject had been broached before the scene, none of that would happen. "

When you are in a unfamiliar and way-over-your-head situation like that, there are two words that are very relevant to your state of mind at the time. Shock and Stress. Both of which will affect your ability to make rational decisions and say 'No', and more then once might I add which is a necessity with these scumbags.

" Yeah, and it could also be that a performer, especially a newbie, might not stop the scene because they might be mentally overwhelmed or in shock. When you're already stressed by a situation like that, convulsing from being choked and puking, trying to catch your breath, etc. and you've got two pricks barking orders at you, I don't think you can be expected to make the most rational decisions. How many rape victims don't scream or call out for help even though that's sort of what you'd expect a person to do? "

When the girls object during a scene they are reminded that "you signed a contract! And you won't make any money unless you agree to do whatever we tell you to do next". Of course they are going to do it. Because that is the definition of manipulation. Fool someone into believing that they have everthing to lose and don't have a choice.

Let's put this into a very basic human situation that everyone is able to relate to: Haven't you ever watched a movie that really sucks ass? You're sitting there and you've spent half an hour watching it and you're really starting to understand that it's a bad movie. But you still keep watching it, hoping that it will become better? And the reason why you do it is because you don't want to waste your time so you just hope that it's gonna become better and won't be a waste. It's irrational, sure, but completely human.

It's kind of the same thing with these girls. Only, y'know, WORSE IN EVERY CONCIEVABLE MANNER.

I can imagine that there is a shitload of guys who would read this text and think "stupid fucking whores should have done some research before then it's all the womans fault". Those guys deserve to get raped. I don't give a fuck about how lectured you're "supposed" to be on the porn business before you enter it, there is a thing called "Basic Human Empathy" and these rapists have nothing of it.

It's like starting a job at a store and all of a sudden you're stuffed in a crate and shipped off to China for sex labor. "U SHUD HAV KNOWN U WERE WORKIN FOR A SHADY RUSSIAN PERSON". It's fucking ridiculous. Why do some people completely free the perpetrator of all responsibility? They are, you know.. THE PERPETRATOR.

I don't think it's unreasonable to ask that a employer informs their customers about what the working details are going to entail. That's like starting a job at a grocery store and all of a sudden you're a police officer fighting for your life. What? What just happened? I mean what the fuck, I know this is porn we're talking about but trying to choke someone to death in a porno doesn't have anything to do with a intercourse.

The people who are in charge of FacialAbuse are rapists and they hate women. I know because I have watched several of their videos where the girls are clearly not comfortable with having sex. Tears are streaming down their faces. And the guy is just pounding away on her like it's turning him on that she doesn't want to.

I don't know about you but if I would be having sex with someone, even if it's a porno shoot: If they START CRYING, then Im pretty fuckin sure I would STOP FUCKING because ITS NOT A TURN-ON THAT SHE DOESNT WANT TO.

Having lurked through some porn forums I found things out. One girl who did FA said that they have safe words but that they will still try to convince you to get through the scene. She seems like a rather rare specimen however. A moderator on the forums also had this to say.

' There are girls who post here on ADT who have done FA.com and said they enjoyed it, even the unexpected parts... and there are girls who post here on ADT who have done FA.com and said they didn't enjoy it, especially because of the unexpected stuff. '

Despite that, I don't think that what they are doing is acceptable by any means. Clearly their way of making a porno is very morally disgusting because all the cards aren't laid out on the table and they COMPLETELY exploit the fact that they are dealing with beginners who have no idea how to deal with a situation like that where completely unexpected things are being done against their will.

So how is a person supposed to make a responsible and informed decision? Especially when they are being psychologically tormented through the entire act, manipulated by the perpetrators (im not even gonna use the word co-actors) to continue when they clearly don't want to and literally get put into shock where they can't make a decision about what is alright anymore.

They don't even tell you "We will be doing unexpected things, is this OK?". Some things occur on the directors impulse.  And it is absolutely not fair towards the actress to do something like that. Quite frankly it is void of all emotion and completely textbook psychopath.

It's one thing if the pornstar in question has experience in the business and knows just how much she can take, when to say no and how to negotiate. But that just generally ISN'T the case with FacialAbuse, they ALMOST ALWAYS use girls that are complete beginners! I think that the director Duke is a complete misogynist psychopath and this seems to be a very conscious move on his behalf. I have reason to believe such and I will be quoting some posts that other people made in the thread that explain it better then I could. Quite frankly I don't see the point in re-writing what is already a good summarization of things.

" For the most part, I have followed the conversations and agree that there are points on both sides where actresses could play a role or get in too deep. The one FA episode I will reference:

Bambi (which is actually Anita Blue) had been playing along very well as the standard girl getting degraded. While she's being done doggystyle, DS tells her to say "Thank You Daddy, Come on.." She lifts her head and faces the camera and says "Can we talk about that?" He asks what happened (the sex hasn't stopped) She continues to tell him that what happened was none of their business. He tells her that he won't make her say it then. Seconds later, he's pushing her buttons about it. It obviously showed that he was capable of pushing buttons about personal things. 

For some reason, I felt guilty watching that exchange. It made me realize just how bad the porn business could be. A woman has a problem with referencing sex with her father (perhaps, it happened in real life). She's being questioned on camera about it while someone is heartlessly pounding her. Something that could damage most people is displayed for everyone to see. That's my opinion of FA" 

" I am sorry, I have seen a lot of porn and you can say what you want, Duke is asking those questions to the girl, not the character. "Have you ever felt this degraded in your personal life? Tell us what the most degrading part was. Do you feel like a totally worthless whore now?" All this while 2-4 loads are dripping down her face, and if that weren't enough, they usually add about 4-5 spitwads on there and make her keep the cum on there for way longer than most avg. porn (spare bukkake's). "

" I think the majority of the problem lies in the intent of the creator/producer/director Mr. Skywalker. When you set out to create a product there are a plethora of possible ways to do so. He could set out to get really good talent who have a proclivity towards submission and explain what he wants to a tee. "Okay, we are really going to give it to you hardcore, and about halfway through the scene, I want to have a mini breakdown, then...."

But, from the mouth (or keyboard rather) of the man himself, that is not his goal. He wants the women to breakdown, not as actress's, but as people. He wants fresh meat that doesn't know what to expect. I mean, the descriptions of his talent alone tell you that. I know there is a thread elsewhere about this, but it is relevant to my thesis, so...

Compare and Contrast these two descriptions.
"Man, you guys are gonna like this one. Barbie takes some serious abuse. We throw everything at her and the kitchen sink. Big Red tears up her tonsils like there is no tommorow. Within moments, the tears and saliva are flowing like the Nile river. Then we give it to her.... We would love to work with her again, she was awesome and puts out an awesome effort for you guys."

compared to a Duke Description
"This stupid bitch had serious mental problems. She was more retarded than Corky Thatcher. We slapped the hell out of this ignorant cunt..... She was such a fat stupid whore"

I mean really? Even those who like rough sex can spot the fact that somewhere under the surface there is some true misogyny there. I know, I know "He is such a nice guy off camera". I honestly don't doubt that, but just to play both sides of the coin, let me offer up this query. What if the Duke behind the camera is the real Duke, and the nice off camera Duke is just being nice so his talent will stay and get abused some more, and is actually the acting Duke? A point to ponder. "


Here are some reviews of the site from members. 

"There is no acting or fake shit like ur see in other 'Gag' sites not naming names. These girls are usually ameuters who think they can take what is in store for them, usually they can't take it and break down or get angry yet continue"

"honest to goodness hardcore amateurs here. no acting whatsoever on the models part and some of the best parts is when then don't like it but must keep going."

"I agree with the critic. It takes a long time to download and much of it is only for sadists. Seeing girls being verbally abused in a seriously mean way, throatfucked so they puke again and again and se them cry like babies while being abused in all manners shouldn't be entertainment for anyone. Clearly these guys are borderline rapists."

"I like things a little rough sometimes, but watch the "momoko" video, for example, and it's pretty clear these guys are rapists. At first she was game, but she ends up crying and shaking uncontrollably. The camera keeps rolling while these scumbags make it clear that "no" is not an acceptable answer. Disgusting. Yeah, some of the facial photos look appealing, but this site crosses the line from fantasy to flat out rape. I hope these guys end up getting raped in prison like Max Hardcore."

I think I have made my case. I wouldn't mind seeing the people who run FacialAbuse murdered. Or thrown in jail. I don't care. Whatever gets them off the market is good. I still can't comprehend why nobody has shut them down yet. They've been doing this for years and it's only getting more and more extreme, higher and higher production value.

At least I hope that the future girls who consider doing www.FacialAbuse.com google the company first and read this blog, and what other people have said. If we can at least expose the site for what it truly is then it should run out of business on it's own. Or it might just turn into a real life version of "A Serbian Film".